While I am writing this I am probably not in a stable state of mind. So if terlebih emosi, please do forgive me.
The thing is i need to vent this out since there is nobody to talk to. Unlike when I used to work, now it's getting a little bit lonely and overwhelming especially after something upsetting happens.
This morning like any other morning, I woke up, get a dose of my daily caffeine and started my daily routine. Everything was ok, Arissa and Zalia woke up and gave me a smile and I gave them a hug in return.
Unlike the other two, my second one woke up cranky and decided to throw one of her worst tantrum. Tried to remain calm, that's when I decided to give both Arissa and Zalia their bath, gave them breakfast and before handling this "spoiled brat"
We had a wrestling match in the toilet, nope scrapped that off, we had a mma fight, no holds bar, no rules. Getting kicked in the tummy and having your breast pulled early in the morning is such a "joy" and "happiness". A ray of sunshine.Not to mentioned, this girl screaming at the top of her lungs is like wow, how do i put this "music" to my ears.
After taking her bath, the next stage begins, and the last part for me. getting her in her uniform means that's it buddy you're going to school.Unfortunately getting kicked again and bending trying to pick her up has taken it's toll on my body (last week had an xray and my back checked and Doctor discovered some injuries). So thank you dear sophie for making it so painfully hurt today. So this is when my heart starts to palpitate, reaching my boiling point, and the transformation to jadi hantu begins. Aku dah naik hantu lah maknanye. And you don't want to see or hear me naik hantu. But this girl is just asking for it lah!
I too started screaming at the top of my lungs. Ok here's a little recap, she did not go to school last Friday and on Monday. So last night she promised not to cry and buat perangai. but she did throw her tantrums she broke her promise and hell yeah aku dah sakit so sorry lah mak naik hantu.
Started my quarrel with her (we fight like sisters according to hubby) when suddenly grandpa decided to put icing on top of this beautiful cake. If she doesn't want to go don't force her. Dia kecik lagi. Omg daddy i'm sorry, but u came at the wrong time. Had a bf and told my daddy that because he said that this spoilt little girl go running to you every single time.
So in the end I lost the battle and she won. She is now as we speak she is watching atok's ipad happily when mommy specifically said no tv, no ipad for you. Thank you my little girl for making me feel the worst today. Loser of the day. I am right now totally giving up. Thank you for kicking me hard when i felt like I am at the lowest point in my life.I am going to school later to cancel your registration. You can stay at home, sit on your throne and rule your kingdom. Just dont come running angrily one day realizing you don't know things. (i told you aku tengah emosi kan). Duit monthly fees to i will use it for my own pleasure, Sekian terima kasih
Emotional writing
Saturday, February 13, 2016
Ok being a mom of 3, no doubt there's challenges there. Ups and downs, it's pack and parcel of parenting.
Here's a list of thing parents (especially mommies) will get annoyed when somebody gave respective comments.
1. Kurusnye anak awak or why your child so thin. Ok here's the breakdown, nobody in this world would want to starve their child. Children are usually picky eaters and are more interested in playing rather than food. Most paediatrics will advice parents not to force feed. In fact memang sujud syukur if the anak nak makan. Just chill and let them explore. They will reach the phase where food will be so desirable. So dah dah..next!!
2. Cantik/handsomenye your kids, putih/hitam, rambut straight/curly..ikut siapa? Aiyoyo dah anak aku takkanlah ikut johnny depp pulak. This comment really gets on my nerves. Sometimes rase kena bawak big photo album or family tree,etc just to show where their looks are inherited from...so ok maybe parents tu dah outgrew their beauty and handsomeness ke, dah gelap coz pergi suntanning ke..takkan sume nak report kan kan...moving on!!
3. Omg your kids are so noisy....ok ok maybe you don't realize this, but they are kids!! They play, they laugh, they cry, they throw tantrums, heck i can assure you that you were once like that as well. Kalau my kids are quiet, i,'ll be worried. It's either they are planing som evil lans or sick. So sila kahwin and beranak dulu before nak comment lebih2.
4. Anak you dah pandai baca and tulis ke. Here's the thing. Children are humans too. Born as individual and each and every child are special. Some learn faster than the other and some are a bit slower in certain areas. Macam kita zaman dolu dolu, takdalah semua benda we are good at. So stop giving them pressure, let them learn at their own pace. They will eventually know how to read and write. Don't take away their childhood from them. If we are pressured by this kind of comment you will come down hard on your kids.
5. Anak you ni selalu tak sihat. Hmm... Again, no parents want their kids to be sick. Anak demam panas pun mak boleh menitiskan air mata ok. The thing is if we compared dulu and sekarang, you will see so much difference. Dulu kalau demam panas tinggi melambung, mak mak kita chill jer kan, amik tuala basah and put it at our forehead, but nowadays with more and more outbreaks (thank you to those who opt not to vaccine kan their kids) doctors too are on their toes. Demam sikit ambik darah, duduk hospital for observation, check itu ini just to be sure that it is not something serious. So before you pass remark as if parents are not taking good care of their child, please be considerate. Parents are humans too, they can't protect their kids from everything as much as they want too.
6. Apsal anak you ni sorang rambut kerinting, sorang rambut straight, sorang gelap sikit? ....oh oo..ok this might be personal to me. When you asked me this kind of question, I am so speechless. What can I say? Ni kan semua anugerah Allah SWT. When you ask me this kind of question, I can conclude two things either (a) you are question God's creation or (b) you think that I am messing around with some other dudes..lol...
7. Kenapa tak boleh bagi anak you chocolate? Kenapa you bagi anak you minum coke?..haihhh again it's the parents choice. When it comes to parenting, there is no right or wrong. Dont be judgemental. Some things may work for you but not for others and vice versa. So let them be. Every parents know what's best for their kids. You can advice, but if they don't take it, don't take it too hard. We are afterall were raised in different style and circumstances. Don't compare.
Ok ok, I have to admit, some of the remarks kat atas are most probably someone trying to strike a conversation with us parents. But trust me, every parents are sensitive about their kids, simply because they are emotionally attached and its theirs. Tak kisah lah if the anak is still a baby or dah besar panjang dah start ada kedutan pun parents will still be defensive and sensitive when it comes to their kids. So here's a piece of advice. Don't poke the mama bear ok.
Here's a list of thing parents (especially mommies) will get annoyed when somebody gave respective comments.
1. Kurusnye anak awak or why your child so thin. Ok here's the breakdown, nobody in this world would want to starve their child. Children are usually picky eaters and are more interested in playing rather than food. Most paediatrics will advice parents not to force feed. In fact memang sujud syukur if the anak nak makan. Just chill and let them explore. They will reach the phase where food will be so desirable. So dah dah..next!!
2. Cantik/handsomenye your kids, putih/hitam, rambut straight/curly..ikut siapa? Aiyoyo dah anak aku takkanlah ikut johnny depp pulak. This comment really gets on my nerves. Sometimes rase kena bawak big photo album or family tree,etc just to show where their looks are inherited from...so ok maybe parents tu dah outgrew their beauty and handsomeness ke, dah gelap coz pergi suntanning ke..takkan sume nak report kan kan...moving on!!
3. Omg your kids are so noisy....ok ok maybe you don't realize this, but they are kids!! They play, they laugh, they cry, they throw tantrums, heck i can assure you that you were once like that as well. Kalau my kids are quiet, i,'ll be worried. It's either they are planing som evil lans or sick. So sila kahwin and beranak dulu before nak comment lebih2.
4. Anak you dah pandai baca and tulis ke. Here's the thing. Children are humans too. Born as individual and each and every child are special. Some learn faster than the other and some are a bit slower in certain areas. Macam kita zaman dolu dolu, takdalah semua benda we are good at. So stop giving them pressure, let them learn at their own pace. They will eventually know how to read and write. Don't take away their childhood from them. If we are pressured by this kind of comment you will come down hard on your kids.
5. Anak you ni selalu tak sihat. Hmm... Again, no parents want their kids to be sick. Anak demam panas pun mak boleh menitiskan air mata ok. The thing is if we compared dulu and sekarang, you will see so much difference. Dulu kalau demam panas tinggi melambung, mak mak kita chill jer kan, amik tuala basah and put it at our forehead, but nowadays with more and more outbreaks (thank you to those who opt not to vaccine kan their kids) doctors too are on their toes. Demam sikit ambik darah, duduk hospital for observation, check itu ini just to be sure that it is not something serious. So before you pass remark as if parents are not taking good care of their child, please be considerate. Parents are humans too, they can't protect their kids from everything as much as they want too.
6. Apsal anak you ni sorang rambut kerinting, sorang rambut straight, sorang gelap sikit? ....oh oo..ok this might be personal to me. When you asked me this kind of question, I am so speechless. What can I say? Ni kan semua anugerah Allah SWT. When you ask me this kind of question, I can conclude two things either (a) you are question God's creation or (b) you think that I am messing around with some other dudes..lol...7. Kenapa tak boleh bagi anak you chocolate? Kenapa you bagi anak you minum coke?..haihhh again it's the parents choice. When it comes to parenting, there is no right or wrong. Dont be judgemental. Some things may work for you but not for others and vice versa. So let them be. Every parents know what's best for their kids. You can advice, but if they don't take it, don't take it too hard. We are afterall were raised in different style and circumstances. Don't compare.
Ok ok, I have to admit, some of the remarks kat atas are most probably someone trying to strike a conversation with us parents. But trust me, every parents are sensitive about their kids, simply because they are emotionally attached and its theirs. Tak kisah lah if the anak is still a baby or dah besar panjang dah start ada kedutan pun parents will still be defensive and sensitive when it comes to their kids. So here's a piece of advice. Don't poke the mama bear ok.
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
I've been so hormonal lately. Tengok national geographic animals pun boleh menangis easily.
I will explain why I am so hormonal. But this blog is just to share with you an incident where i broke down while I was driving to Lumut to visit hubby one weekend.
The kids were sound asleep and I've found one cd that I have compiled during my uni days. So dalam tuh memang semua mellow songs, ballads lagu cinta yang frust menonggeng semua lah. Lagilah senang driving since the songs are so mendayu which the kids memang sedap jer tido with the aircond full blast.
While I was driving, suddenly I teringat arwah mama and I was feeling sad and what not. Nak dijadikan cerita Dayang Nurfaizah's song tiba-tiba keluar - pintaku terakhir. There's this one part terus makes me cry like a baby.
I will explain why I am so hormonal. But this blog is just to share with you an incident where i broke down while I was driving to Lumut to visit hubby one weekend.
The kids were sound asleep and I've found one cd that I have compiled during my uni days. So dalam tuh memang semua mellow songs, ballads lagu cinta yang frust menonggeng semua lah. Lagilah senang driving since the songs are so mendayu which the kids memang sedap jer tido with the aircond full blast.
While I was driving, suddenly I teringat arwah mama and I was feeling sad and what not. Nak dijadikan cerita Dayang Nurfaizah's song tiba-tiba keluar - pintaku terakhir. There's this one part terus makes me cry like a baby.
"Ku rindu, wajah dan senyumanmu
Memberikan cahaya didalam setiap mimpi-mimpi ku
Kau pergi membawa hati ini
tinggalkan ku sendiri dalam sepi"
Yang pergi tetap pergi. I miss you mama and not a single day goes by that I have forgotten you. Layanlah lagu yang dimaksudkan itu.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Pejam celik, pejam celik, dah nak sampai dah bulan Ramadhan,
Kaum-kaum hawa dah ganti penuh ke puasa yang tinggal tu? Kalau tak sempat, silalah tunai kan bayaran fidyah yer.
Bayaran fidyah nie must be made before bulan Ramadhan. Kalau nak tau berapa yang kene bayar, boleh check out the zakat kalkulator on this site :
Ok! Once dah calculate, visit your nearest pusat zakat untuk buat bayaran..kalau nak senang, boleh buat through online dekat maybank2u :)
Here are the steps that you can follow.
Kaum-kaum hawa dah ganti penuh ke puasa yang tinggal tu? Kalau tak sempat, silalah tunai kan bayaran fidyah yer.
Bayaran fidyah nie must be made before bulan Ramadhan. Kalau nak tau berapa yang kene bayar, boleh check out the zakat kalkulator on this site :
| Step by step Fidyah Calculation..senang kan |
Here are the steps that you can follow.
- Log-in masuk accout di maybank2u.com.my
- Klik "Accounts & Banking"
- Klik "Bill Payment"
- Klik "Make A One-off payment"
- Dekat drop down box, choose "Zakat & Charity"
- Select from the list pusat zakat yang berkenaan. Ada beberapa negeri in the list
- Lepas tu, put in amount yang kene bayar, and choose Fidyah
- Sambil bayar/ klik, jangan lupa niat yer. "Ini zakat fidyah yang wajib bagi diri saya pada tahun ini sebanyak RM****, kerana ALLAH TA'ALA"
Easy right :). Sekadar berkongsi...Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan and banyak-banyak kan ibadah, InsyaAllah
BOO AGNES :)
Last Thursday we went to a special screening for Despicable Me 2. I won 4 tickets from a radio show. The movies will be out tomorrow here in Malaysia. The movie is very entertaining. Compared to Monsters University, I would highly recommend Despicable Me 2.
Anyhoo.. am writing just to share some pics of my beautiful daughter Sophilea.
The mystery of this post is about to be revealed.
Ok now I can't wait to go home and gomol you!!!! Gedhammmm
Anyhoo.. am writing just to share some pics of my beautiful daughter Sophilea.
The mystery of this post is about to be revealed.
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| My real life Agnes from Despicable Me |
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| My real life Boo from Monsters Inc |
Ok now I can't wait to go home and gomol you!!!! Gedhammmm
Monday, July 1, 2013
HAA!!! So you think only when you're drunk you have to appoint a designated driver. You need one too if you're pregnant and you're at work and about to pop anytime.
So I was having this conversation with my very pregnant friend about due dates and her plans to work from home when her pregnancy is in 37 weeks. So I offered myself should anything happen in the office and she's about to pop I will drive her to the hospital. Baiknyeeee..sweet kan kawan nie (jump at any opportunity to skip work :p).
While I shamelessly offered myself, she mentioned that she had this conversation with another pregnant friend that I'll be the right driver since it's on my way back home and I drive fast. Hati bunga-bunga ok! Bangga siot kene appointed as designated driver..heheh
So yesterday I tested my driving skills with Arissa around Shah Alam and I have to say I did tremendously well (betul Ain, me not lying). I even picked a song to pump up the spirit of speeding. So here I was speeding with Bruno Mars Run Away baby and finally reached home safely.
See how smiley Arissa is..so Ain, you will be fine and happy once you reached the hospital :p (if needed la). I think you're in good hands. What say you (Big Grin)
So I was having this conversation with my very pregnant friend about due dates and her plans to work from home when her pregnancy is in 37 weeks. So I offered myself should anything happen in the office and she's about to pop I will drive her to the hospital. Baiknyeeee..sweet kan kawan nie (jump at any opportunity to skip work :p).
While I shamelessly offered myself, she mentioned that she had this conversation with another pregnant friend that I'll be the right driver since it's on my way back home and I drive fast. Hati bunga-bunga ok! Bangga siot kene appointed as designated driver..heheh
So yesterday I tested my driving skills with Arissa around Shah Alam and I have to say I did tremendously well (betul Ain, me not lying). I even picked a song to pump up the spirit of speeding. So here I was speeding with Bruno Mars Run Away baby and finally reached home safely.
See how smiley Arissa is..so Ain, you will be fine and happy once you reached the hospital :p (if needed la). I think you're in good hands. What say you (Big Grin)
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| Bottom pic is the 1st pic taken (muke tahan nafas sebab mama speeding). The bigger pic is the "I survived!!!" moment |
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
There's no words to describe the feeling of being a mother. Your life is like a whirl wind. Sure there's ups and downs but it's a fulfilling feeling.
Being a mother of 2 means double the fun, double the joy and double the trouble. Ever since my second daughter Sophilea turns 1, she's been cheekier than ever!!
One thing you have to know about Sophie, she has a large pair of rabbit teeth hence the biting habits. I blame my husband because he was the one who taught Sophie how to bite.When I told him that his daughter loves to bite people, my husband says proudly " I'm teaching her how to defend herself from her sister because I saw Arissa kicked Sophie sweet chain music style"...
I googled it and man, memang violent giler. You can click here to view. Well I guess what goes round comes around and revenge is sweet..and in this case, comes in bites size..hehe
Ok enough of me yapping. Here I would to share with you videos of sophie :).. Enjoy!
Sophie kicked kakak out from the boat
Sophie geram at kakak
Sophie bullying auntie ili
Sophie made this video especially for papa :)
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