I've been so hormonal lately. Tengok national geographic animals pun boleh menangis easily.

I will explain why I am so hormonal. But this blog is just to share with you an incident where i broke down while I was driving to Lumut to visit hubby one weekend.

The kids were sound asleep and I've found one cd that I have compiled during my uni days. So dalam tuh memang semua mellow songs, ballads lagu cinta yang frust menonggeng semua lah. Lagilah senang driving since the songs are so mendayu which the kids memang sedap jer tido with the aircond full blast.

While I was driving, suddenly I teringat arwah mama and I was feeling sad and what not. Nak dijadikan cerita Dayang Nurfaizah's song tiba-tiba keluar - pintaku terakhir. There's this one part terus makes me cry like a baby.

"Ku rindu, wajah dan senyumanmu

Memberikan cahaya didalam setiap mimpi-mimpi ku

Kau pergi membawa hati ini

tinggalkan ku sendiri dalam sepi"

Yang pergi tetap pergi. I miss you mama and not a single day goes by that I have forgotten you. Layanlah lagu yang dimaksudkan itu.

Bayaran Fidyah Online

Pejam celik, pejam celik, dah nak sampai dah bulan Ramadhan,

Kaum-kaum hawa dah ganti penuh ke puasa yang tinggal tu? Kalau tak sempat, silalah tunai kan bayaran fidyah yer.

Bayaran fidyah nie must be made before bulan Ramadhan. Kalau nak tau berapa yang kene bayar, boleh check out the zakat kalkulator on this site :

http://www.e-zakat.com.my/kalkulator-zakat/fidyah/

Step by step Fidyah Calculation..senang kan

Ok! Once dah calculate, visit your nearest pusat zakat untuk buat bayaran..kalau nak senang, boleh buat through online dekat maybank2u :)

Here are the steps that you can follow.

1. Log-in masuk accout di maybank2u.com.my
   
2. Klik "Accounts & Banking"
   
3. Klik "Bill Payment"
4. Klik "Make A One-off payment"
   
5. Dekat drop down box, choose "Zakat & Charity"
   
6. Select from the list pusat zakat yang berkenaan. Ada beberapa negeri in the list
   
7. Lepas tu, put in amount yang kene bayar, and choose Fidyah
   
8. Sambil bayar/ klik, jangan lupa niat yer. "Ini zakat fidyah yang wajib bagi diri saya pada tahun ini sebanyak RM****, kerana ALLAH TA'ALA"

Easy right :). Sekadar berkongsi...Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan and banyak-banyak kan ibadah, InsyaAllah

BOO AGNES :)

Last Thursday we went to a special screening for Despicable Me 2. I won 4 tickets from a radio show. The movies will be out tomorrow here in Malaysia. The movie is very entertaining. Compared to Monsters University, I would highly recommend Despicable Me 2.

Anyhoo.. am writing just to share some pics of my beautiful daughter Sophilea.

The mystery of this post is about to be revealed.

My real life Agnes from Despicable Me

My real life Boo from Monsters Inc

Ok now I can't wait to go home and gomol you!!!! Gedhammmm

Designated Driver

HAA!!! So you think only when you're drunk you have to appoint a designated driver. You need one too if you're pregnant and you're at work and about to pop anytime.

So I was having this conversation with my very pregnant friend about due dates and her plans to work from home when her pregnancy is in 37 weeks. So I offered myself should anything happen in the office and she's about to pop I will drive her to the hospital. Baiknyeeee..sweet kan kawan nie (jump at any opportunity to skip work :p).

While I shamelessly offered myself, she mentioned that she had this conversation with another pregnant friend that I'll be the right driver since it's on my way back home and I drive fast. Hati bunga-bunga ok! Bangga siot kene appointed as designated driver..heheh

So yesterday I tested my driving skills with Arissa around Shah Alam and I have to say I did tremendously well (betul Ain, me not lying). I even picked a song to pump up the spirit of speeding. So here I was speeding with Bruno Mars Run Away baby and finally reached home safely.

See how smiley Arissa is..so Ain, you will be fine and happy once you reached the hospital :p (if needed la). I think you're in good hands. What say you (Big Grin)

Bottom pic is the 1st pic taken (muke tahan nafas sebab mama speeding). The bigger pic is the "I survived!!!" moment

Sophie Toffee in action

There's no words to describe the feeling of being a mother. Your life is like a whirl wind. Sure there's ups and downs but it's a fulfilling feeling.

Being a mother of 2 means double the fun, double the joy and double the trouble. Ever since my second daughter Sophilea turns 1, she's been cheekier than ever!!

One thing you have to know about Sophie, she has a large pair of rabbit teeth hence the biting habits. I blame my husband because he was the one who taught Sophie how to bite.When I told him that his daughter loves to bite people, my husband says proudly " I'm teaching her how to defend herself from her sister because I saw Arissa kicked Sophie sweet chain music style"...

I googled it and man, memang violent giler. You can click here to view. Well I guess what goes round comes around and revenge is sweet..and in this case, comes in bites size..hehe

Ok enough of me yapping. Here I would to share with you videos of sophie :).. Enjoy!

Sophie kicked kakak out from the boat

Sophie geram at kakak

Sophie bullying auntie ili

Sophie made this video especially for papa :)

Cancer

So here I am having food poisoning..pfftfff!! I'm so tired and just chilling in front of the TV. Flipping channels and was watching this movie "50/50" about a young man diagnosed and fighting cancer.

What do you think of when you hear Cancer? Death sentence?...Yeah many of us felt that way when we hear that, especially those who are diagnosed with it. I felt the same way too.

 I remembered accompanying my mom to see her oncologist when he told us that she had metastasis and it was a stage 4 cancer. It was such a heartbreaking news. Of course I didn't know what did that mean at that point of time. And I didn't even google it because I was too scared to know the truth.

Metastasis means the spread of a cancer from one organ or part to another non-adjacent organ or part. Simply means if the cancer cell started from the breast, it is now spreading to the liver, for example.

Stage 4 cancer : You see, there are 4 stages of cancer. 1 being an isolated cancer and 4 being a cancer which has spread to the limit of what the assessment measures.

You see, one thing that I regret the most is that I didn't google this and had I known, I might have do things differently and prepared myself (if you know me, now I Google everything!) . I was so naive, I wanted my mom to be strong and fight it and was being so positive she can fight it again.

When my mom was first diagnosed with cancer, I was the last person to know. I was still studying in UTP back then. I remembered she came alone to UTP and took me to my aunt's house in Batu Gajah. Being the care free me, I noticed that she was different. A lil bit somber than usual. I remembered in the middle of the night, she hugged me from behind thinking that I was asleep. She kissed me and then cried. I didn't know why I didn't just turn and say "Hey ma, I'm awake! What's wrong?". Probably I was only 19 and was not sure how to react to whatever news that she has. But I got to know anyhow when my big brother called me the next day.

Dealing with cancer is never easy. Dealing with people who has cancer is tough as well. When my mom had a metastasis, the doctor sent us to Pusat Cancer Negara to do some bone scanning. I was always right by her side when she did xray and scan. I remember looking at her bones scans and there were black spots all over. I wanted to cry when she asked me " Semua ok kan bi"..I choked for a while and I said "Ok Ma".

Sample of bone scan image with cancer cells

I knew then that it was very serious. I remembered one of the oncologist mentioned that everybody has cancer cells. It just has not been activated. Cancer can be activated when you're stressed, depressed and definitely lifestyle. With the fast pace of life now, more and more people are diagnosed with cancer. Cancer awareness is definitely needed!

When people say Cancer, don't be afraid. Don't look it as a taboo, don't look it as a death sentence. We should support and be strong for each other. Create awareness and help the research/donate to find cure for cancer coz nobody should lose someone you love over this disease 

Donation is just one click away :)

When you're tired...

Yawwnnzzz...

I'm at work and can't focus and concentrate. Probably because Sophie was down with fever. Yang peliknye her fever will spike up from 6pm onwards. I call it the zombie fever..Y? Sebab nye..siapa yang jage people yang dapat zombie fever nie, confirm will jadi zombie the next day due to sleep deprivation (fuiyooo mcm serious jer tak cukup tido).

Was sooo sleepy this morning that I woke up around 8am and guess who wakes me up. It's none other than the fat chick herself..sambil senyum peluk her teddy..mama dalam hati (hishhhh stressss!!! tp Alhamdulillah nampak si kecik dah sihat). Ape lagi terus bersiap untuk ke office but in full blast zombie mode (maknenye tahap slow gile gaban..kura kura pun lagi laju...)

So what do you do at a time like this? When you're so tired, no hubby to turn to, tidak bermaya lagi and the only thing you think about is your fluffy feather pillow and your super king size bed with comforters (omg just imagining it i almost doze off to the la la land)...senang jer solution nye..

TADAAAA~

The only pic that has everyone is in it :)

This are my friends at work, my sisters, my support system(most of them are mommies..therefore senang mintak advice and opinion) and my reference.  They are the ones that makes working so bearable.. We laugh together like nobody's business, we cry and feel for each other, we bitch about things together and most importantly, we have lunch together (our favorite time of the day).When I feel down or I feel that I've made a bad decision, I will always turn to them and somehow it feels like I'm not alone...

So thank you my friends. Thank you for making things a little more easier here (ni mcm nak pergi jauh jer bunyi). I know some of you may not be in AMD any longer but you will always stay and lingers in my heart.(awwww sweet sangat tapi cheesy)...LOL

 I love you girls!! 

Spice Girls Fever

Tengah rajin nak mengupdate blog again..Wow wee not often do you see this moment.

Last nite I was watching star world and Glee 4 was on. It was the Guilty Pleasure episode. I was not concentrating pun because was bbm-ing with hubby. But i manage to catch this video of my first born - Arissa....

OMG semangatnye. It's nice to see that the song that i grew up with is accepted by the younger generation ie my kids. Now watch the original video by the Glee cast. I think she was trying to tiru the cast..siap angkat-angkat kaki hokay!...

GIRL POWER!

My "First" time.....LOL

Wow weee...tajuk blog sangat mengelirukan...ape yg first time tuh?!?

This post is dedicated to my lovely cousin and her "first time" trying....Try ape tu? Dodgy nye bunyi..

Haaa first time try nielah!

The famous Chatime

My cousin Nina is getting engaged. So she, her sister (yang first time tulah) Kak Emi and I were out and about looking for her things. Dah tu jalan punye jalan dengan hari panas yang berdentam (eyh ni bukan bunyi guruh ke...arghhh whatever!), of coz la terase haus ya amat.

Usually I would buy coke (yah guilty as charged..still drinking coke and manage to entice Kak Emi yang begitu anti skali...Hiah3x(gelak evilzz)) but that day it was different. Probably Nina was whinning.."I need chatime. Need to find chatime". Ok2 we get it. So sambil menyelam minum air, sambil mencari barang tunang, cari chatime juge".

Being kak emi, yang slalu ketinggalan zaman tew :p..(can u believe this perempuan, she has iphone but no data plan..oopss terkutuk plak :p), yang tak join in the hype, keluarlah kenyataan kenyataan "innocent" di bawah and disangkal oleh pihak kami :-

Kak Emi : " Eeewww i don't like buble tea..i don't like the bijik-bijik"

Nina & Me : " Lerrr jangan lah amik bijik, amiklah coconut jelly ke, pu.." (Notice that the ayat tak habis but telah dipotong...)

Kak Emi : " Eeewwww I don't like coconut"

Me : " Hish pilih lah topping lain"

Nina : " Or tak yah ade topping"

Me dalam hati "oooooo can eyh" (you see i have a reputation to jage, tipu with confidence..kalau tanye nanti nampak tak cool la kan :p)

Found the first chatime.."Ok2 kak emi we have to stop here"...alamak cannot plak coz nanti kacau traffic....then from KL off we went to Bukit Jalil...

Sampai satu area, orang lain tengah cari parking, from far i dah nampak the purple sigh..OWH MY GOD!!! CHATIME!! CHATIME!!...

Kak Emi & Nina : "NANA!!!!! Buat terkejut orang jer"

Me : " Well i can't help it..i'm too excited..sorry" (Dah la baru kene marah with this kak emi sebab lego..haihh)

So berjalan lah kami ke Chatime di tengah panas yang mcm 98 degrees tu...terus tengok menu..of course nina and i have already decided except for this chick la..punye la lame...siap nampak gambar pastu tanye..

Kak Emi : " Na, nie ape?"

Me dengan confidentnye sambil mencari name kat menu : "Owh to adalah taiwan mango qq"

Kak Emi : " Yerlah tu, awak suke confident"

Me : " Hish! betullah..tak caye suh nina tanye" (Memang tak confirm tp hati berdebar sambil chanting dalam hati..tolonglah betul tolonglah betul)

Nina sambil tunjuk gambar kat dinding : "What's that?"

Orang Chatime " that's taiwan mango"

Me dengan muke eksen tp dalam hati lega and tgh sorak yeay!!! : " haaa kan dah cakap tak nak caye"

Kak Emi : "Oklah oklah"

Gambar taiwan mango yang super duper yummeh!

While waiting for our drinks, we saw the guy preparing our drinks. Waited patiently and then 100 questions session begins.

Kak Emi : " Nape duduk sini"

Me : " tuh ade nombor tuh. Kene ikut turn yer"

Kak Emi : "ooo...HAH!!!...lamenyeeee." (Number was showing 26..ours 38)

Kak Emi (holding the receipt) and Nina..Nina yang duk melayan kakak nye yang mcm kanak-kanak ribena with all her questions

Tengah tunggu tu boleh pulak die nampak straw chatime..

Kak Emi with her purple straw..shishh!

Kak Emi : "I nak straw purple!!"
Nina : " Memang sume purple"
Me : ROTFL

And then she saw one cup doesn't have pearls in it...

Kak Emi : "Nina punye yang takde pearl tu kan"

Nina : "Yer..mine strawberry puding"

Kak Emi : " Kalau puding die taruk ape?"

Nina and Me : "Puding lah!! LOL"

Kak Emi : "OOOOOO...so how are u supposed to eat the pudding?"

Nina and Me : " Strawlah..hahahahahaha" ROTFL

Bile drinks dah sampai, no more questions, and we enjoyed our cha time..syiok kan kak emi. Semua orang minum gelojoh sampai tertelan the pearls..kui kui kui...nanti we buy again k :)

I dunno if this is happy or regret but i'm gonna assume she loves it!

Her very first sip..LOL

What's your number?

Lame dah tak post any blog...

Al maklumlah was so busy with everyone getting the sniffles and fever. But Alhamdulillah everyone is recovering :)

Hubby just moved to lumut 2 weeks ago and it's week 2 for me sleeping without my hubby. For those of you who know me, I have a very wild imagination. Especially in the dark. Nanti terbayang la something knocking on the window, bunyi tapak kaki atas ceiling, something lurking under the bed. That's why i try to avoid watching scary movies and listen to people talking about those kind of movies or ghost. Sebab bile dengar cite from someone else, my imagination runs wild. And most of the time, hantu in my head is wayyy wayyy scarier than in the movies itself....so kalau nak strike a conversation, please avoid this topic.

Oklah banyak sangat melalut. Yesterday I took the kids out, so that everybody will be tired and tidoq awai. Well mission accomplished unfortunately not for me. Been tossing and turning till 1am and when i finally fell asleep i woke up again 3.37am. Having weird dreams seeing hubby and his brothers wear tengkolok for raya..LOL...

So what do you do when when you're can't sleep and feels the creep at 3.30am?? Usually i pi dekat hubby and peluk then i can sleep..tried hugging my two kids but it doesn't work. So korek lah laci cari dvd. Tetibe "ceng ceng", it's like as if ade light shinning down on this dvd - "What's your number?" It's about a girl who just got fired from her job, and read that average american ladies slept with 10.5 man. Her number was 19 and she doesn't want to exceed the lucky number 20. So the quest of searching all of her ex boyfirends begins. You can watched the trailer here.

Started watching and laughing at the wee hours. But it helped me sleep better. Just want to share you my favorite part of the movie. So if you haven't watch this yet..make this as a must see movie. CHICK FLICK ALERT!

Salam Semua

Lately I've been thinking a lot about how life will be like in another month time. It will definitely change. 

Kalau dulu balik ade hubby, nanti ade two little kids jer tunggu. Nak masak pun nanti mesti tak semangat dah. Kalau malam2 nak manje/malas, "Darling tolong buat milo, pweaseee. You punye milo paling power!". Nanti dah takde dah orang nak jawab sambil senyum cakap "Milo dah siap!". Kalau dulu ade orang nak gaduh2 lepas geram, nanti lepas geram kat bantal jer lah jawabnye (I'm sure you lega with this part :p).

In a month time, my beloved habibi (husband) will be in Lumut to start his new job. Embarking on a new journey in his career. *sob* *sob*.  Although I'm happy that you finally taking this big leap, deep deep in my heart, berat hati want to let you go. But I know some sacrifices has to be made and IT IS for our future :).

All I can give you right now hanyalah doa and support untuk mengiringi langkahmu (ape ke hal melayu benor ayat nieh :p) for this new adventure. I love you darling!!! 

Came across this video and somehow it fits the whole situation right now.

Layanzzzz~~~

When Sophie refused her appa

This is a very short post. Malas nak tulis panjang lebar since it is Friday.

So news flash! My hubby will soon be a weekend husband, embarking on a new journey for his career. And I am truly happy that he finally took the plunge. Definitely sad to be apart from him, mana tak nye, since we were together back in 2004 till now, we've never actually been apart. Mana tak nye kalau kat UTP at least mesti pi dinner sesame and NO!!! we are not the belangkas type of couple (denial mode). But InsyaAllah for a brighter future, we need to make some sacrifices.  Semoga dipermudah kan segalanye.

Ok panjang lebar la cite nye, point of the story, I don't know why but lately Sophie has been distant with him and refused her appa(papa). Whenever the father dukung she will cry, but with everyone else, she's ok. Maybe she knows that papa is going away for work soon.

So this is a hilarious moment last nite. Manage to capture it although quality takde la high definition kan.

Miahahahaha!!..Siap geleng2 kepala tu yang tak tahan. My theory is, sophie merajuk because when mama was sick, papa left her with mama alone to play futsal thus the injury (will blog about that soon).... :p

We love you papa!

You know you're a mommy when.....

It's Thursday and it's THROWBACK TIME!!

Lately I'm surrounded with so many pregnant ladies (yes literally with families and friends). I felt excited pulak to have another kid (Zaid don't get to excited). But not now, not yet!

If i were to be pregnant again, I want my kids to be independent, at least to take care of themselves, ie makan/mandi, tengok tv sendiri. Tak larat dah nak dukung-dukung like I used to dukung Arissa while I was carrying Sophie.

So today I would like to share baby pic of Arissa and Sophie while they were still in the hospital.

This was back in March 2010 and April 2012. See the similarities but I think you can spot which one is Sophie. Sophie yang belah kanan yang banyak rambut tu. Hehe. Look at them now.

So different kan?!? Sorang sooo curly and the other is like super straight. Having kids really turned my life upside down (in a good way). I can't never imagine that another life would need me so much in their life but now I have two.

Here's list of "You know you're a mommy when...". Saje nak share, something to ponder about

1. You're always complaining about having your own time(facial, gym, date night). But when you do all you can think of is your kid. 
2. You're FB wall are filled with loads of your kid's picture instead of picture of you camwhoring. Obsessed gile as if other people doesn't have a kid kan <---- note to self
3. You're going for shopping, you always buy your kid's clothes instead of your own. Tak kisah la panties dah berlubang ke, seluar koyak ke.
4. You're started to worrying about your kid not pooping and you kept going on and on about it. Kalau time single mingle, dengar pasal berak pun geli. Pffftfff!!
5. You don't really care what's on cinema anymore. All that lingers in your head are the cartoons theme song in your head ie, barney, thomas, mickey mouse clubhouse, dibo,tayo..really?..i can go on and on with the names of the cartoons.
6. You started to eat vegetable yourselves just to show a good example. Actualy this is what I've missed for the past 25 years. Refused to eat sayur until you get a wake up call tengok your own kid munching on kacan botol..Double pfftfff!!
7. You started driving 80km/h on a highway. Walhal dulu mak minah racing hokay. Bawak satria 160km/h..Ish ish - sorry pak polisi!
8. The time to get out from the house increased from 15 mins tops to full hardcore 120mins. This includes packing, bathing, preparing susu and what not, car seats. Yes thank you daddies out there
9. You started looking at the best prices/offers for diapers and formula at the supermarket. Dulu jalan buat bodoh jer.
10. Last but not list. The suffering of a husband. Alah tak yah nak deny la. All mommies does this. I think we concentrate so much  at our kids that sometime we forget our beloved habibi. Kesian!!. Kalau dulu, "Darling you nak makan ape tonite?" skarang jadi "Baby mama nak makan ape tonite?". That is why hubbies out there need to pick up other things to mengisi masa lapang ie futsal. Alasan nak sihat kan badan walhal deprived of kasih sayang..miahahaha......

So if you went through the list and 50% fits you, then confirmlah! You are a mommy!!!

Till then folks..Renung2 kan lah :p